FROM: captain.falcon@cdc.org
Must have missed that memo.
Must have missed that memo.
[It's something a Contractor could never truly feel- Havoc knew that. Nothing was every one hundred percent- whether it was safety or trust or anything else. But that's what it felt like to her.
Like nothing could hurt you. Nothing like Macha, or the CDC.
Silently, Havoc slid over some of the meat she was slicing. She knew about keeping busy, too.]
Yes and no.
[There had been advantages and disadvantages to never belonging fully to one government, one group, like many Contractors did. Less chance to go through the ME wringer had left her with a better grasp of her own past- before Regression, at any rate.
She could remember it now. Those memories simply didn't come with much in the way of love.]
Like nothing could hurt you. Nothing like Macha, or the CDC.
Silently, Havoc slid over some of the meat she was slicing. She knew about keeping busy, too.]
Yes and no.
[There had been advantages and disadvantages to never belonging fully to one government, one group, like many Contractors did. Less chance to go through the ME wringer had left her with a better grasp of her own past- before Regression, at any rate.
She could remember it now. Those memories simply didn't come with much in the way of love.]
FROM: captain.falcon@cdc.org
Punishment for the ones that failed and an example for the rest of us.
Punishment for the ones that failed and an example for the rest of us.
FROM: captain.falcon@cdc.org
Enough. Make your point.
Enough. Make your point.
FROM: morir.carla@cdc.org
I know what they do to failures.
FROM: morir.carla@cdc.org
What did you make of the party?
[Carla has priorities.}
I know what they do to failures.
FROM: morir.carla@cdc.org
What did you make of the party?
[Carla has priorities.}
[Thats the point, isn't it. There's nothing they can do to prevent it. They've been assured it won't end in death, only pain. Pain, Havoc fears in a deep, rooted part of her, is very similar to the pain all of her victims went through. The sudden realization that the air around you rejected you, left you clawing with nothing to breathe, pressing in on you, crushing-
She'd stopped chopping, gaze hyperfocused momentsrily on nothing until Foxtrot nipped at her heel, snapping her out of the spiraling thought. Blinked, the line of her lips thinning, before she used her knife to flick a piece of meat off the counter, sending the little creature scampering off across the floor of the rover after it.]
Mother, father, grandparents, two younger brothers.
[Listed off, the members of a family she remembered like a distant dream. Each loss and return of memories or feeling felt like starting all over again... So she'd died how many times now? Left all that behind years ago, once the Gate called her name, back when she'd gone by the one given by a mother, like a proper human being. But still...]
Once. I think.
[Unable to even fully trust that. Could she have gone under the ME after all? We're they something implanted for a job that just never got taken out? She supposed there was no way to know for sure- not anymore.]
She'd stopped chopping, gaze hyperfocused momentsrily on nothing until Foxtrot nipped at her heel, snapping her out of the spiraling thought. Blinked, the line of her lips thinning, before she used her knife to flick a piece of meat off the counter, sending the little creature scampering off across the floor of the rover after it.]
Mother, father, grandparents, two younger brothers.
[Listed off, the members of a family she remembered like a distant dream. Each loss and return of memories or feeling felt like starting all over again... So she'd died how many times now? Left all that behind years ago, once the Gate called her name, back when she'd gone by the one given by a mother, like a proper human being. But still...]
Once. I think.
[Unable to even fully trust that. Could she have gone under the ME after all? We're they something implanted for a job that just never got taken out? She supposed there was no way to know for sure- not anymore.]
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Thank you for your cooperation.
FROM: dagger@cdc.org
Thank you for your cooperation.
FROM: captain.falcon@cdc.org
Is that what you're feeling?
Is that what you're feeling?
FROM: captain.falcon@cdc.org
Fair enough. You know what I meant.
Fair enough. You know what I meant.
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