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▻ amber ([personal profile] retry) wrote2014-11-12 01:16 pm
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dearkafka: (hanging from the gallows pole)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-03-29 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

On the scale you're talking about—completely altering the way people see one another—I doubt that would hold much ground anyway.

But I suppose the answer is: the reasons for my own actions matter to me.


[Perhaps it was different for contractors, but it was the only way he convinced himself he was still on the "right path," if he could claim to have good reasons for whatever he did. A thin justification, at best, but...]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

And so you remove them as well. It's a process.

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

Honestly? I certainly am nowhere near as skilled as the man who taught me, or my co-workers, but...

If I had the right machines, I could make a pretty good cup of coffee. Unfortunately, the CDC doesn't supply that sort of stuff to us by default.


[A shame. The stuff that Kaneki had been drinking didn't hold a candle.]
dearkafka: (no i didn't come to see you)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-03-30 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
[Yep, there was definitely a hell of a story there. And it was definitely a miserable place to be; he knows by experience.]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

You have to be. The world I come from is a twisted one.


[Wrong. He doesn't know how to fix something that has an error in its foundation.]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

Maybe there is. I heard we get paid, so it might be a decent thing to invest in for the future.

Sweet, huh? It covers up the taste of the coffee, you know.
dearkafka: (i got water and holes in my hands)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-03-30 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

I agree. I try not to make that mistake.


[Yeah, sure, he'd tortured a 14-year-old once, but he'd done it for a good reason, right?? (Admittedly that kid had been brutally attacking his sister, who was Kaneki's friend, so... he was pretty much the worst.)]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

It'd be nice to have something around I recognized and understood.

So... yes. I think I'd be happy being able to make something for people that they'd enjoy.


[See how fast he goes from "what the fuck, Kaneki" to "precious cinnamon bun"?]
Edited (i worded something badly hold on) 2015-03-30 15:44 (UTC)
dearkafka: (and i brought you a little gold)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-03-31 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[The world may never know.]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

Yeah. I know.


[He says that. It doesn't mean he's not going to nearly kill himself trying, though.]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

I... I do really like it.

I like to be of use, and if it's doing something that others can enjoy, that's all the better.
dearkafka: (hunters and kings)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-03-31 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[In a way, yes. His mother had stressed, when raising him, kindness above all else—but her kindness was a twisted sort of thing, and it had taken him a long time and mental anguish to realize that. "Become the one who is hurt rather than the one who is hurting others. A truly kind person can find happiness in just that."

Now, he doesn't really believe in that anymore, but you can see where his martyr complex started, right? Yikes.]


FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

Yes, it does.

Is that strange to you?


[Most people don't have to ask...]
dearkafka: (is there peace beneath)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-04-01 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
[He'd deluded himself into thinking there was something noble in it.

Fortunately, he'd broken himself of that.]


FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

I... apologize if I made any assumptions. I thought you were being hyperbolic about the "incapable of emotions" thing.

Is that true, then?

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

It's, ah... difficult to explain.

Even if it is an inconvenience to myself, when you put forth the effort and find that what you'd done brought happiness to someone else, there is a gratification in that.

I'm not sure if it's "happiness" exactly, but it's a positive feeling.

I enjoy knowing others are happy so, in a way, it does have a bearing on me.
dearkafka: (it can be a good start)

[personal profile] dearkafka 2015-04-01 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

Do you remember them, then? You were human before you became a contractor, right?


[Sometimes he wishes he'd been able to completely shed his old code of morality and humanity. It would've made things easier... though, no. He had to remember who he'd been or he'd lose his way, like Yomo had warned.]

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

That's a very... utilitarian way of looking at it.

FROM: kaneki.ken@cdc.org

It won't, but... sometimes it's not about what best serves one at a given time.

And I'll take the chance over the alternative.


[When he tries to take steps back and distance himself from others, he becomes a person he doesn't recognize.]
2leftfeet: (alpha crucis)

d107

[personal profile] 2leftfeet 2015-04-02 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Just saw the new recruit files.
2leftfeet: (beta cygni)

[personal profile] 2leftfeet 2015-04-03 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Not exactly, but I'm not going to refuse supplementary data if you have it.


[Ha ha, hilarious.]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
I'm guessing you know Hei's back.
2leftfeet: (beta aquilae)

[personal profile] 2leftfeet 2015-04-03 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
[Whatever. She knows she's funny and that's all that matters.]

FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Did you have something to do with getting him back?
2leftfeet: (epsilon ursae majoris)

[personal profile] 2leftfeet 2015-04-03 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
That's the plan.
2leftfeet: (lambda leonis)

[personal profile] 2leftfeet 2015-04-03 07:13 am (UTC)(link)
FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
Nice peptalk.


FROM: shepard.lydia@cdc.org
But seriously.
roque: (speak)

d.108

[personal profile] roque 2015-04-03 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
FROM: luciola@cdc.org

Thank you for your assistance.

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