FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org She did what she's done to survive. So who's fault is it? Hers. So who's blame? Hers. So who can she rightly hate? Herself.
[ The part she doesn't understand is the hate. Why blame anyone at all? What is the reason for this hate? Everyone in varying ways are only trying to survive too, only she was thrust into a life that demanded murder. ]
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What's happening is guilt?
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I don't know.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
What do you think is happening?
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It could be guilt.
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If it is, you would know how to help her, can't you?
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That's a lot of guilt all at once
I know she'd need more then one person, and especially someone other then me
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"Regression", right??
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Regression was less... dramatic than this.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
She forgot many things when she regressed. Now she remembers all.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I will keep her from hurting herself.
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In both disobeying or not paying her price?
I'll help. I'll try to help. I want to help. Guilt like that, that must already have become hate.
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Hate? For who?
FROM: amber@cdc.org
You can keep her company when I must be away.
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For herself, it sounds like.
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Why? That makes no sense.
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She did what she's done to survive. So who's fault is it? Hers. So who's blame? Hers. So who can she rightly hate? Herself.
Does that make sense?
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
It's not her fault.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
Do you know how to convince her of that?
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Hate is like love. It doesn't need to make sense.
How long do you think it'd take to convince a person not to feel something that strong? A person has to convince themselves.
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You're asking the wrong person.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
But I won't let her hurt herself.
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What happens if neither of us can be with her?
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I'll speak to Hei. Three should be enough.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
Tell no one else.
[ More than that would endanger Havoc more than necessary. ]
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[the answer was another part of the problem. talk about a mess.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
I won't.
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
Thank you, Hinata.