FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org He already doesn't like me. And if he found out about that (which you're joking about and it ISN'T FUNNY) he'd hate me. Not to mention you have better candidates.
So even if I agreed, it isn't worth thinking about.
I'd watch him, but not because of you. [yes, because of you.] In the meantime, take care. Don't think you can choose not to die - nobody gets to choose that around here. It makes you sound stupid.
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org Those kinds of people, the ones that need extra reasons to live, they're sick in the head. Sometimes visiting a doctor can help, sometimes it can't. I think the older a person is, the harder it gets.
But around here, there's probably not even a point.
[ If not her, then Bai. He will always have his sister. It may be that it was her intention all along, make it impossible for him to let himself die because then Bai would die with him. Her plan was bulletproof. ]
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He already doesn't like me. And if he found out about that (which you're joking about and it ISN'T FUNNY) he'd hate me. Not to mention you have better candidates.
So even if I agreed, it isn't worth thinking about.
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He's incapable of hating you.
[ Her, on the other hand, well that's to be expected. ]
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I'd be happy just to hear you say yes.
1/2
[... and for the second part, after a pause--]
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Emotional manipulation? Really?
I'd watch him, but not because of you. [yes, because of you.] In the meantime, take care. Don't think you can choose not to die - nobody gets to choose that around here. It makes you sound stupid.
So watch out!
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I've never been called stupid before . . .
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I'll keep two eyes on the road, Hinata.
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Ok.
[nothing close to good enough, but what could you do?]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
If you mess up, I'll try to keep an eye on him.
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
Thank you, Hinata.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
He isn't incapable. He only needs reasons.
[ Reasons to live on. People to live for. She doesn't think that's a role she can play anymore. ]
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FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
His own self isn't enough?
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Strange, isn't it?
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[a beat.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Yeah.
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Was he always like that?
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For as long as I have known him.
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[needs a reason. like John. unlike John,]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Suppose it's a bit late for a doctor.
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Why a doctor?
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Those kinds of people, the ones that need extra reasons to live, they're sick in the head. Sometimes visiting a doctor can help, sometimes it can't. I think the older a person is, the harder it gets.
But around here, there's probably not even a point.
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They told me I am sick because I want to live at all cost. Why is the opposite also called a sickness?
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People who are called sick seem like threats to themselves or others. That's a valid reason, isn't it?
Being sure of what you'd do if your life was on the line... It's terrifying to the average person, they don't live like that.
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I tend not to trust doctors. Especially those too keen to label and define rather than to heal.
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If you don't know what it is, how could you heal it?
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Who's to say it's a sickness to be healed?
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Your trying to heal Hei's, aren't you? By making sure he has reasons
Why are you doing that if you don't think it's a problem?
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
I need him to survive. That's all.
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Yeah
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Things that get in the way of that, they're sicknesses
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
It could be cancer, or a broken leg, or feelings... Cerial killers, rabid dogs, people that give up, they're all sick
That's how I think anyway
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No. He won't give up.
[ Is that petulance or a statement of fact? It's hard for her to tell. ]
FROM: amber@cdc.org
He won't do that to me.
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We were talking about when he hasn't got you.
[like you didn't have him. and how well had that gone? would it go just as well the other way?]
[but they were starting to argue in a circle; it was time to drop it.]
[though, the thought persisted: get off Red.]
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
He always has me.
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