FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org Fails to pay? she's paid every time, she's been on top of that, i think i'd knw??? so we have to get her to drink more right now ok,, i can do that!!!
she's refusing it but she must change her mind once she has it plain and simple!
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org She did what she's done to survive. So who's fault is it? Hers. So who's blame? Hers. So who can she rightly hate? Herself.
[ The part she doesn't understand is the hate. Why blame anyone at all? What is the reason for this hate? Everyone in varying ways are only trying to survive too, only she was thrust into a life that demanded murder. ]
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"Melting like butter."
FROM: amber@cdc.org
What can I do?
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Dont you have an idea???
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
butter refs don't help
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A Contractor who fails to pay her remuneration.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I don't know what to do.
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Fails to pay? she's paid every time, she's been on top of that, i think i'd knw??? so we have to get her to drink more right now ok,, i can do that!!!
she's refusing it but she must change her mind once she has it plain and simple!
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Hinata.
[ That's another way of saying stop right there. ]
FROM: amber@cdc.org
What do you do when you feel guilty?
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[NOT THE TIME.]
[typed, grind teeth, delete.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
depends on what.
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
Murder, I should think. How do you stop feeling remorseful?
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murder????? i've never murdered
[and here: the reason it would take a number of seconds for her to receive this reply.]
People tell me it depends on who they've murdered.
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Things like that, [emotional things,] it all depends, there's so many bumps and holes to how a person can feel
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For this purpose, someone innocent. Not crimes of passion.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
What do you do when you feel guilty?
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What's happening is guilt?
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I don't know.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
What do you think is happening?
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It could be guilt.
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If it is, you would know how to help her, can't you?
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That's a lot of guilt all at once
I know she'd need more then one person, and especially someone other then me
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"Regression", right??
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Regression was less... dramatic than this.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
She forgot many things when she regressed. Now she remembers all.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I will keep her from hurting herself.
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In both disobeying or not paying her price?
I'll help. I'll try to help. I want to help. Guilt like that, that must already have become hate.
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Hate? For who?
FROM: amber@cdc.org
You can keep her company when I must be away.
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For herself, it sounds like.
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Why? That makes no sense.
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She did what she's done to survive. So who's fault is it? Hers. So who's blame? Hers. So who can she rightly hate? Herself.
Does that make sense?
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
It's not her fault.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
Do you know how to convince her of that?
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Hate is like love. It doesn't need to make sense.
How long do you think it'd take to convince a person not to feel something that strong? A person has to convince themselves.
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You're asking the wrong person.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
But I won't let her hurt herself.
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What happens if neither of us can be with her?
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