FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org No!! Thats not what I mean! People aren't clear cut like that! I don't really know him and I don't really get the lines between human and not either
But if thats what you're going by, it makes more sense
[ Her reply comes much, much later. Not because she has no answer to give but because she isn't sure he deserves to know. She doesn't need to explain her actions to anyone. And yet-- ]
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I would do anything for him because I want to. Nothing he does can change that.
[ Let alone whatever he says. She thinks she's seen him at his best and at his worst and she loves both. ]
[what he says, because she deigned to tell him, and he knew that wasn't something to be taken lightly. after the instantaneous affirmative, it takes half a minute to compose what he sends next. didn't want her to bring back words meant to chase him off; didn't want to smother his own, either.]
[ That's a funny thing to say to someone who's already sacrificed her life once for him already. To someone who has agreed to extend the length of her contract to bring him back a second time. ]
FROM: amber@cdc.org
If you attack him again, you will have me to answer to.
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What did you mean by selfless?
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Do you need me to look it up for you?
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Yes, from your personal dictionary, then if you could spell it out and give me an example of its use that'd be perfect
[... ---]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Isn't he a Contractor too?
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
He must think you're safer not associating with Contractors.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I can't blame him for that. You're human. And weak.
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FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
That's what he said
[the jabs are bait he refuses to take.]
[it's--- worded like that, Li's warning had its roots in compassion. but. but.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
He thinks you're liars and monsters but you'd do anything for him?
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He isn't wrong.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
You think I should hate him because he knows I've lied and murdered when it's all true?
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I don't think you should hate him, or not talk to him, or not care about him
There's no helping that kind of thing
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
But I don't think someone who says your truth with disgust should have your everything in the palm of his hand, either
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
It's worse if he knows that. Which he probably does!
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He doesn't hate me, as much as he must wish he does.
FROM: amber@cdc.org
Isn't that enough?
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No
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Yes?
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
I don't understand. How can you be sure? With how he acts... Did you decide it?
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He had many chances to kill me but he could never bring himself to.
[ If that's not love, well, she doesn't know what love is. ]
FROM: amber@cdc.org
I understand your concern. Thank you.
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FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
How well can a Contractor understand a human??
Do you use him as your gauge? Is that why you follow him? Do you think he's close enough to being a Contractor that you can understand?
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You're saying he's a bad example for a human.
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No!! Thats not what I mean! People aren't clear cut like that! I don't really know him and I don't really get the lines between human and not either
But if thats what you're going by, it makes more sense
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
I'm concerned
I just want to understand
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
I would do anything for him because I want to. Nothing he does can change that.
[ Let alone whatever he says. She thinks she's seen him at his best and at his worst and she loves both. ]
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[his first thought.]
[don't you have anything else to call your own?]
[his second.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Ok
[what he says, because she deigned to tell him, and he knew that wasn't something to be taken lightly. after the instantaneous affirmative, it takes half a minute to compose what he sends next. didn't want her to bring back words meant to chase him off; didn't want to smother his own, either.]
[maybe he should thank her. he doesn't.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Please be careful
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FROM: amber@cdc.org
If you attack him again, you will have me to answer to.
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[and Li called her a liar.]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
He doesn't need the help
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